August Moon

Just like every great show this one must come to an end. This month of August has been a non stop thrill ride for me. Iv met tons of great people and be-friended a wonderful soul. It seems like everything I wished for came true someway or another.

From Aug 3rd through the 5th Joey and I went up to the Russian River for Lazy Bear weekend and spent most of the time with his friends "Scuba" Steve and Robert his partner. There we met Nef. At first Nef was in and out for most of the first day. Later that night joey and I decided to go to the local bars to have a few drinks then go to the bonfire. Nef and Joey went on to the bars I was left with Scuba and Robert in the tent. They stayed in the tent since they had to volunteer for the big party "Sweat" that night. Once I found Joey and Nef we got some drinks and walked from bar to bar. Some how he got to Safeway and bought more drinks. Then it was off to the Bonfire. On the way Joey and I lost Nef. We found Nef in a big group of hot burley men, we told him we were going to do our own thing and we would find him later that night.

Joey and I were done with the bonfire and decided to go to the big party of the night "Sweat". Just walking in it felt like I was drenched with buckets and buckets of nasty sweat. EWWWWWWWW! I didn't stay long. Some guy was rubbing on me and Joey was busy with some older man. I couldn't stand it so I went out and went to find Nef. My job was to make sure Joey didn't go home with and ugly guy during Lazy Bear. Once I left I guess joey left too. ( I didn't tell Joey I was leaving, guess I was to drunk to care)Of course he cant remember the events of that night so we will never know what Joey was doing after I ditched him. It got to cold out side so I gave up looking for Nef or Joey at that point so I headed back to the tent. By my self. I woke up in the morning and made breakfast (Sausage)and drank a beer. So Germen of me. We ran out of water after the first day. So for most of the time I was up there I was drunk or buzzed. As you know thats where I met Shane and since then we have been really buddy buddy.

That was at the first weekend of the month. Just yesterday I had Dinner with all of my best friends and Family. We went to Farmer brown in the city. They have good soul food. We ate and My mom met Mark for the first time ever. Four years after Mark and I broke up my mom finally mets him. It was really nice for them to meet.

Poor Jeff

Last night I had Plans to go out with Joey to a bar in the city or right by his house. Since i forgot my charger at Kira's i drove to the City. I left at 5:00pm and didn't get to the city until 7:00pm. Apparently there was a big Football game with the 49ers and the Raiders. I hate driving and i hate Traffic so mush more. Once I finally reached the city i was ready for a few drinks. On my way to the San Francisco Joey called me and told me he was still sick. So i decided that after picking up the charger I would go see Shane. Shane: 32 Leo, Big and Tall just like i like them. He's so funny he keeps me giggling. when i got to his house my phones battery died. i couldn't call him and i was to retarded to push the door buzzer, so i did the best thing i could think of and yelled his name really loud and deep right under his window. mind you he lives on Castro and 18th so all the gay men I'm sure turned and look at me. he he oops.

later that night a few of Shane's friends came over. We went to dinner right down stairs at the sausage factory. Good food. Boy was i hungry. And I didn't have the munchies. i ate a med size pizza. I did have a little help from Justin. Justin: Lives in L.A. from Walnut creek. Tall cute boy that run three businesses in L.A. He was visiting with his sister from Idaho I forget her name... we all had fun during dinner. Some how we started to talk about poop and not being able hold your mud. Did I mention that these guys are crazy? I love it. Dinner was great "Thanks Jeff"

Jeff: Hot Italian man From NYC, Furry arm and a deep chill voice. To me he was kinda shy.

After dinner we all went back up stairs to the house Ever one in that house went to the back door and crammed then selfs on this every narrow stair. Jeff and I stayed inside. His phone rang then he seemed really sad. :( I just met thins guy last night and he felt so comfortable to share his boy problems. I was touched. What he said made me think. As much as i Like Shane I'm not ready for a relationship. He calls me his Pocket Gay or his boy toy. HE HE i like that. For most of the night we watched Tales of the City. Since I'm reading the book Shane said it would help me understand what I'm reading. since some times i get lost.

I went to bed before anyone. Shane went to tuck me in. Ah how sweet! I passed out and then felt Shane and Justin crawl into bed. Some how i found my self on the couch in Shane's room. HE placed a blanket on the couch just in case i was not comfortable on the bed. I was getting to hot. I had a good night. I was late to work about 13 min cause i went home to shower. I'm still house sitting Marks house.

Before I'm 24

It's been years since I've posted. First i want to say, Thank you to all my best friends that have been there for me over and over again. They stuck by me when i started to make bad chooses.

After Mark and I broke up. I moved back to Bay Point with mom and dad. I started to work for Ford Dealers in Bay Point. god I fucking hated that job. I hated the sales more then anything. It's really not hard to do, but i know I'm super Lazy. I sold a few cars here and there but for the most part it was not for me.

I left Ford and didn't work for two months. My old friend Daniel helped me get a job with one of he's customers. ( he worked for the BofA as a center manager) Her name was Sylvia. Sylvia had a cafe and a salon in Brentwood. She told me all about her hopes and dreams for this "Salon and Spa" I was sold. I took the job.
Meanwhile in my personal life I was going to clubs with my friend Gabe. He missed me at the dealership. We were the only two gay boys there. one night we both went to the Crib with a good friend of his named Alex. When we got to the club we all split up like we all ways do. By the end of the night Gabe and I were bored and Alex, well he found a hot boy to take home. Same hot Boy that i was after all night. No worries I don't cock block. I was happy for both Alex and Tim, his new boy. On our way home we find out that Tim is going over to Alex's house and we find out that there dating and that Tim is moving closer to be with Alex.... all in one night. Thats a Lesbian move right there.

Life went on, Tim lived with Alex. Gabe was still at the dealership and i started to work at "Sylvia's salon". When i finally stated working, the salon was not open the place was still being worked on. Still needed to be painted and no one was renting out the chairs. and she still wanted me to go around town and tell everybody that a new salon was here and ready to take customers.

In the span of a week a few things happened. Alex cheated on Tim and told him to move out. Tim came from Modesto. He knew nobody here besides Alex. I would talk to him at the club here and there. when ever i saw him sitting down while Alex was run around kissing boy's. I felt sorry for Tim and wanted to befriend him. I got more then i could chew. after his break up with Alex i started to hang out with Tim more. He had now moved to Concord. Gabe heard the news and was upset with me b/c I started to date Tim. Like i said I wanted Tim the first night i saw him. Careful what you wish for right.

For a while everything seemed great. I quit working for Sylvia and her fucked up salon. She was only paying me 8.50 an hour to call her suppliers, move shit around the salon and run the now open but not taking hair appointment salon. I was fucking Manager with 8.50 an hour. FUCK THAT CUNTY BITCH!!!

Tim was working for BofA now and he helped me get a job with the company. Much better job. I was in customer service and he was in Online banking. So we didn't work together.
I have this problem when i start to like a guy. I tend to cling to that person. I am working on that btw. I stayed at Tim's as much as i could. But that seemed to be to much for me. Tim was not like that other guys that I dated he was more long winded. It took him for ever to get to a point and with all his useless information was starting to get on my nerves. He never could let things just be. So i broken up with him.

Round two, I was lonely, why i thought i was never going to find someone like Tim was beyond me. I must have been high that day. I asked Tim to be my b/f again. It gets better... I broke it up again. I my self was not happy . I really can't tell you why.

Round three, After the second time Tim started to date other people. I was not feeling sexy anymore so i didn't make the effort to date my self. I stopped going to clubs and started to become a home body. Tim started to date this guy named Chentte. A dancer from NYC, use to live in Modesto and he was friends with Tim long before i met him. It was a constant "...Chentte did this and Chentte can dance really really well."
Thats great i love my fellow dancers but Tim knew of my love for dance and i asked him many times to come to dance classes with me when we were dating. Every time I asked he told me it was bad for his ankles and that he couldn't. Here comes this Broadway Dancer and all of a sudden he's taking dance classes just so Chentte can likes him more... do you see why this hurt me? I wanted to share my dream and passion with some one that i loved and i was shoot down. But this fool comes in the picture, a better dance by far and now Tim wants to get him jobs and be his talent agent. remember when i said i don't cock block? FUCK THAT!!! I took Tim and told him that i still loved him and that i wanted him more then anything. It was a bad idea, i dated him again for all the wrong reasons. It didn't last long and there was more to why i did what I did.

One night after a fight about some thing stupid I received an Email telling me that Tim no longer had the will to try to make this relationship work.

Thank God for doing what he did. I'm a much happier person for it. I met new friends and went to Lazy Bear weekend with Joey my best friend in the world. There i met Shane, really nice guy and cute. so much fun to be around. And thats where i am now.

Tim and I still hang out. we mostly just get high or drink to pass the time. Gabe now works for Domino's pizza he's now a store manager. Good for him. Alex got into a car crash while all of this was going on, but he's ok and alive. not my favorite person b/c he cheated on Tim. I don't care who you are nobody deserves that. Not even Tim. lol

he' to my 24th's birthday *Cheers*